Executive dysfunction fucks me over so much. OMG. I hate it. It looks so sloppy too, or lazy, and it’s not, it’s just that certain things are very difficult for me to do. Like, my name and gender change on all my ID was intimidating me. I did it. It’s done! It took MONTHS though, and being able to carry through in keeping up with paperwork and appointments to do all of that was difficult. PLUS it had to go in a certain order. It was like, a whole project really.
And now I’m doing bottom surgery and I have a list of nine documents I need to gather and email to the surgeon’s office. And I started working on the documents a while ago, but I am STILL struggling with getting them together. Right now I have six of them together. OMG also I had to get a friend to act as a witness to my signature on a form consenting to them taking pictures of my genitals and the journey they are going on. I mean I could have said no, but I was like whatever sure maybe people will learn something. BUT YEAH I had to get my friend to sign it after watching me sign it. And then I had to scan all this stuff. It’s a lot harder than when I went for top surgery, because my nurse practitioner sent in most of the forms for top surgery. Also I don’t think there were so many forms. ALSO the top surgeon’s practice is local, so I just signed some of those forms at the office.
ANYWAY three left to go, I know it will be ready by the end of the week to go. I finally requested the last two letters from my doctor (it’s already written) and I just have to call my pharmacist and ask them to make a list of my prescriptions, which would probably just be a print out of what is on file. So it’s close, it’s VERY close to finally being officially on the list to wait for a consult. BUT WOW. Considering the favourable outcomes of getting my own dick and balls (yay) it was SO HARD to stay motivated to get these papers together. But once I send it all off, it will hopefully be easier. I can deal with attending appointments and stuff, it’s just paperwork that bums me out and slows me down.
If I had a secretary I would have a dick and balls already. Ha ha not really, but maybe I would be two months ahead of where I am now.
I was going to give an update on how I feel about teaching, but it seems like a bad idea to include that in a post about dick and balls.
Work is going well though, I’ve been enjoying working with students and staff. And creative projects are continuing. I am redrawing my video game character today though, I need to separate feet from ankles, shins from knees, necks and heads from chests. My poor little skeleton man is not working properly in the skeleton rig the way he is now. So it’s a bit of an etch a sketch redo, although I am keeping most of him, it’s just editing and separating the pieces that I have to do. I wanted to have the first level done for a show next month, but it’s looking like if I can just get him animated, that might be as good as I can get before the deadline.