I am waiting for an edible to kick in. I’ve been having a restful holiday, just healing. I went to my friend Aylan’s house for Christmas dinner. That was nice. And I had a couple hookups. One was someone I know already. But mostly I’ve just been sticking close to home and recovering.

It’s that weird twilight time of the year, where something is leaving and a year we don’t understand yet is coming. It looks ominous. But also there are the curve balls that always happen. I’m not sure what to expect and I am not making predictions either. It could be terrible! It could be okay, who knows!

I have further things to admit. The edible I took was a mushroom.

Anyway, I started doing work, and I did get a decent amount done. But then I realized Mr. Mushroom is starting to kick in and I can’t do anything anymore. I did find all my files for this project though, and made a place for them in Premiere. So it’s like, about to happen! Tomorrow maybe I can work on it for reals. It’s a very overdue project but it would be great to get this org their sound files back this next year.

I promised myself I would do some writing, so today I spent all afternoon working on my script. I didn’t even have to force myself to work, it just came out and I knew how to fix things. So I did that. I think maybe the end is too heartwarming? I mean not really, terrible things happen. But there’s more closure. But maybe it was better when there was no closure? It was more devastating before. But I realized there were some emotional plot holes. Like “Would a person really act this way if _____ had happened to them?” And in those instances I felt like I didn’t adequately answer those plot holes before. So they are more resolved now. But also maybe before was better I don’t know.

I was having a sad moment at the end of this year about not being able to make a living as an artist. BUT sometimes it’s okay I guess. I do have a lot of projects I deeply care about. And finished projects I am very happy with. So I guess that’s my life. It’s so strange to think how rocky this year started with persons trying to ruin me because they got offended by mild criticism. Sigh. I’d rather not talk about that here tho on this end of year. Especially on a mushroom.

Anyway, I’m going to zoom with my cousin soon and visit and be on mushrooms and the first time I ever did mushrooms was with her so it’s kind of full circle.

Ahh I wish I had potato chips! I’ve finally found a steady supply of Magic Masala chips at the Dollarama near me and it’s been great. But I have none today.