Ha ha omg so I was looking for props for this show and I found my Dollarama Dreamcatcher that I had in 2 Spirit Dreamcatcher Dot Com. I need to make a shadow box for it or something in case I ever have a show again. I remember when I found it, it was in the Canada Day display. It’s just an ugly piece of “leather” painted with two deer and in the middle of a hoop with tacky fake fringe. It’s really funny and not at all representative of a dreamcatcher except it’s round and you can hang it on the wall.

HA HA omg so I went to go take a picture of it and it wasn’t where I last saw it. So who knows where it went! Maybe the little people took it. They will give it back I just need to give them something shiny and a candy. In Argentina, the little people require offerings of liquor and cigarettes. Which is very specific ha ha.

I did chores today because I’m leaving tomorrow. I also am working on my animation lesson plan for Monday but its like, too difficult for the time we have, so I’m trying to figure out how to speed through something simple to demonstrate. We just got to make a caterpillar wiggle. That can’t be too hard. I made a rat run, so I could probably just reverse engineer it from that.

Anyway, ALSO I am working on writing my script. I have been slowly working at it, but I have to speed up. There’s a lot to be done around here, and my dogs aren’t able to help out. Although they provide great emotional support.

It’s been horrifying to watch what is happening next door. I’ve seen that trans people can’t get new passports issued at all, even if they go back to their assigned gender at birth, and also get their identification documents seized. It’s fucking creepy. I read so many books about the Holocaust and saw films and all that, when we were still educated on it a lot. And I remember reading about Jewish people losing their passports to the authorities.

I don’t know what I would do if I couldn’t ever leave Canada again. I know some people like being here and never bother going anywhere. But I feel like I learn more about myself and the world every time I travel somewhere. Anyway, it’s very troubling and I’m really hoping I’m wrong about what is coming. That administration is so vindictive, and clearly Trump is a Russian agent because he is dismantling the USA. Elon also is likely a Russian agent. I shudder to think of what deals were made to ransack a country like that. We knew this was coming though. Like we saw it coming for a LONG TIME.

I remember when I was a baby dyke (before I was a baby trans) and I read this lesbian sci fi book about Christo-Fascists taking over the United States and how there was a civil war and some parts became their own countries. I could see that, but at the time I was just like “ooh interesting, good thing this hasn’t happened!” Omg.

BUT the point is it did seem to be coming. And now a lot of people have to resist, when we’ve been giving so much data to a surveillance company masquerading as social media.

I think I knew we were past the point of being able to resist like that when I took a plane and Delta didn’t scan my ticket, they scanned my face. And they KNEW who I was. Like it’s all out there, what do we do now?

I feel it’s reckless to be hopeless. I don’t think that’s something we can entertain, because it leads to apathy and apathy leads to defeat. Who is going to fight if you told them they already lost?

There ARE countries that resist after a coup. Although I did see someone in Latin America post on socials that they kind of had it coming for starting coups all over. Anyway ha ha I am not the best person for suggestions for resistance here, especially since it’s public. I am still engaging with Meta because my family members are there. I did completely close my Amazon account though. Shut it right down. I was so used to the convenience, so we’ll see how long I last. But honestly I don’t want to give Bezos another cent.

I did appreciate DeepSeek fucking over OpenAI. I don’t think OpenAI can claim anything about intellectual property, when they stole all of their datasets. I hope the AI bubble finally busts.

Anyway this is a messed up timeline. Even if we did see it coming. It’s just that people didn’t listen, or not enough, or maybe Elon Musk did hack the American election to make sure Trump won. All kinds of shady stuff.

Today I mended a button on my shirt, and another button that I accidentally took off. It was such time consuming methodical work, but it actually kind of helped my brain out. I can’t solve world problems but I can solve this button that Todd chewed up.

Note: The little people returned my Dollarama Dreamcatcher. Here it is!