I am still working on my podcast! I need to make the song/jingle for it still and haven’t had time. PLUS I want to record another episode. I am slowly figuring out the format I want it to have, so I need to perfect it. Plus I want to have a few recorded before I start putting them out.

Also went back to work yesterday. Halfway through the semester!

I also found out I got into a festival I’ve wanted to go to for years. So I have to be quiet about where and when etc. But I’m excited, I am going to go for this screening and have a bit of an adventure etc. So that’s fun. ALSO it’s not in the United States, so going isn’t an issue.

I did find out today that they are putting through a law where foreigners getting visas for the United States will need to get them in their gender at birth. But none of my id has my gender at birth on it. And if they find out they can ban you from the United States forever. SO it’s not a law yet, but it’s what they want to do, so I’m being aware of it. And also I had already decided not to go to the USA at this time. So yeah, that does suck. But also I’m not entirely surprised.

I had such a ranty last post ha ha I totally forgot about it because I went off and had a nice few days or whatever since that post. I’m working on my projects. I got money to make a short film! I got into this festival! I found out Lily Gladstone follows me on Instagram and I was so star struck. Ha ha it was as exciting as when I realized Yoko Ono was following me on Twitter. Of course I followed them back.

I’m excited for life for a few reasons, which is nice to feel. Although the overall outlook of the world is pretty bad. But I have some things I am grateful for I guess. I’m still feeling creative and I guess I realized that we’re kind of all stuck in this hell and my job as an artist is to make it a bit more bearable. Like, the way you can cling to a song because it makes you feel seen. But with all kinds of art, not just music.

Musically I need more time to spend with my guitar. I paid for another semester of guitar lessons and then I am going to take a break and just practice until September. I’m not sure how long people usually take lessons. It feels like there’s still at least 500 things I don’t know about how to play guitar. Probably more! I don’t even know, I’m getting better at reading tabs but I can’t read music notes. I’m having an easier time picking up basic songs. I’m still trying to learn Crazy On You. This week I get to see the substitute instructor who was in Gowan, which I think is so cool. I used to be obsessed with Gowan in the 80s! All those great cancon hits ha ha.

Todd had to go to the vet today, he did his check up and got his vaccinations and his nails got trimmed. And then he came home so sleepy and has basically been sleeping on and off ever since we came home. Poor baby boy.

I submitted a travel grant because of getting into that festival. I wanted to submit to the ISO, but when I logged onto their portal, their travel grant deadline was literally yesterday. So it’s a Canada Council travel grant. Those grants aren’t really guaranteed so I’m going to try and be prepared to just be able to cover it with my own money. Who knows! I wish the arts were better funded.

I did my t shot today. Gender Affirming Care for the week, done! I’m also doing scar care on my revision though, and I am SO BAD AT IT. With the initial top surgery I was so consistent about doing it every day and doing the gel and the silicone strips. And I got great faded scars out of it. But with this one I keep forgetting to do scar care. I’m trying to be a bit more consistent. Maybe because it’s under my arm, I don’t feel as conscious of it? Which is weird because obviously I was conscious enough of that spot to want a revision there. I don’t know but I’m doing my scar care again when I remember.

I’m excited about Cows and Plows, but it’s going to be a while before we get it. When we do I can pay off my debts though, so I am hoping for sooner rather than later. COWS AND PLOWS!

Anyway my career is very ADHD right now and I’m doing all kinds of things every day and that’s just my work style right now I guess. It is slower. BUT things do get done.