My cleaner was here today so the house is clean, and I’m so relieved. Yesterday it was a mess and I was like “I could clean it, but the cleaner is coming tomorrow anyway…” I remember the first time he came over, I cleaned the house before he arrived ha ha. But it really is nice to know once a month the house gets a reset and we can all feel happier and less guilty. I have a whole weird thing about cleanliness and uncleanliness and being Indigenous and it stresses me out! Between that and my need to be constantly productive, I really need more therapy. Luckily I’m not planning to end therapy any time soon.

I have been enjoying an increase in my Vyvanse. It’s helped me be a bit more alert and also focused and getting things done. Today I finished writing a 1388 word article that’s due tomorrow. I need to sleep on it and go over it again in the morning. I also sent a bunch of emails related to a project I’m trying to get a grant for.

ALSO THOUGH I really need to make a plan for my short film I want to shoot this summer. I need to find cast and crew, and nail down a shooting date, and shoot it. I have to break down my script and find out how many actors I need. ALSO I was going to have him work in a call centre. But now I’m wondering if he could work a call centre job from home? I’m just trying to figure out how to use as few sets as possible. I need a library too. Do you know how much TPL charges to film in the library? A lot! It’s a lot! For one thing I need a $5000 damage deposit, and that’s a third of the film’s budget, so it’s not gonna be shot in the library.

I have a few other ideas of places though. Maybe. I just need someone with a table and a bookshelf that doesn’t look like someone’s house.

ALSO I was approached to act in a feature film someone is making, so I need to read the script. I keep meaning to do it while I’m on the train, but I forgot this last week. I think I can try this Sunday though.

I’m starting to have big revelations in my head about my script though. I’m making some progress in broader decisions about the structure of the film. So it’s going to look different than it looks now. Like, meaner, but also more logical I guess. But also I learned a lot in the recent few months of talking to people and my story editor and producer. So I feel like I’m more informed to write it.

I also need to find a musician who seems enough like a pop star to fit the story, but who is cool enough to let me use their tune for $1000 for my film. I just need the tune! I need to make a shortlist of people/Canadians who fit this.

ACTUALLY Ha ha I just remembered I am going to see my guitar instructor next week who was in a big CanCon band. So maybe I can ask him if he has ideas of people I could talk to.

I do know a ton of musicians though. I had my heart set on a song but it didn’t work out.

I’m having a whole bunch of other personal things going on though including feelings I wasn’t expecting that I can’t talk about ha ha. But the work stuff takes a lot of my time.