It’s early morning and I got up so that I can fill out an online application for employment in a temp staffing office. Yes, I am currently aspiring to be a temp. I think I might like it, I would meet a variety of people by the end of it, that’s for sure.

So I have to look extra sparkly today. I had a dream I was buying makeup. That is WEIRD for me, as I haven’t worn makeup for nearly eight years, except a couple times when I was crazy.

Craziness brings out the showmanship in clothing tastes, that’s for sure.

I’m still really missing Scotland. It feels like being homesick! I’m surprised that I miss it this much. I wish I was still on holidays.

Oh damn! I seem to be chubbier than I was when I wore my tux, the result is my shirt no longer fits. Damn! So right now I am wearing a Scottish Rugby Shirt with a huge emblem of the Scottish Flag on it. It’s pretty stylin’, but not appropriate for a job interview. So I think now we also have to go interview shirt shopping. Double damn! Money I didn’t want to spend, going!

Anyway, I think I had the best summer ever this year, it’s going to be hard to top, that’s for sure. Hmm, although a summer romance is also something to look forward to. I did have one of those, sure enough, she dumped me around about august.

I’m back to looking for work, and soon! I need something to fill in my long days and take away from my career for a while. LOL. No, I don’t consider work to be that huge a burden. Although it will be a definite change of pace from life right now.

I’m still doing well with not smoking. I’ve done all kinds of things and not smoked cigarettes. I still only had that one slip way way back when I first started quitting. It’s been weeks now. I’m on Step 2 of The Patch. It seems to be working. I didn’t notice the change from Step 1. I’m a little more tired though. It’s not such a heavy stimulant, and I’ve noticed being able to sleep more even when I am wearing it.

I’m pretty sleepy now, don’t know why I”m even writing. We might have come into contact with bedbugs in the UK. Mum has big welty bites on her arms and legs, and I have a few on my wrist and ankles. So, eeehhhh! I hope we didn’t bring them with us, although I hear they can’t survive Saskatchewan winters. Let’s pray it’s true!

I’m feeling goofy, having had some absinthe. And also still being terribly jet lagged. I’m pretty ready to go to sleep. It’s nice being back in Canada, I can’t imagine living any other place.

I really like my footage. I’m very tired though, again. I am premiering You Are A Lesbian Vampire in Toronto at ImagineNative. Exciting! And I’m also showing Madness In Four Actions there.

We picked up Mister and Schrodinger today. They had a good time at summer camp (aka the kennel), Mister came out of his shell a LOT more, and made friends with some of the dogs there. He’s also friendlier to my friends, which is nice. Schrodinger spent the time in the office with Mimi, my mum’s cat. He had his mouse with him. It’s a little fuzzy green thing.

Oh man, I should crash. Deanna liked the semi precious stone runes I got her. Now she can give me rune readings!!

I feel like I’m lost in time somewhere between day and night. In Edinburgh time it’s now 7 am, but here in Saskatoon where I am again it is only midnight. It feels WAY later. I’m really confused and I feel out of sorts because I’ve been awake for 24 hours! On a plane! Ugh! My ass hurts, I’ve been sleeping in skinny beds, I didn’t poop for a day, I’ve eaten crappy airline food and watched two movies back to back. I fretted the whole way about two pricey bottles of absinthe stashed in my checked luggage and had my ears pop over and over. I’m so fucking tired but I’m also stoned and it feels intense! And I’m so tired but I have to decompress before I can possibly lie down. I have some amazing footage including something I really have never seen before and could be a youtube hit.

I’m exhausted. Not to mention I decided I HAD to answer my email and most of it was about my upcoming group show at the National Gallery, and now I’m not sure my tired mind is adept enough for that.

Ah well. It’s nice to answer business email. Much less pressure than answering personal mail.

I’m SLEEPY! I’m crashing man, it’s LATe :LATE LATE for me! Actually I think, oh my ear finally popped, I think I’m going to look at my stuff first, then go to bed. Yes. Oh man it’s late.

We’re going to the Infamous Loch Ness today on a boat tour. Maybe we’ll see the monster! It’s been incredibly fun and we’ve seen some very cool things. I’m going to be glad to get home though to see my little dog and my kitten. I had a dream about my cat last night, dreamt I tied him to some balloons and then realized he might fly high in the sky away from me. I also dreamed my stomach had tons of surface piercings and I had no recollection of doing them, only to find out Mike did it while I was drunk and high! Weird dream!

I’ve been having lots of weird dreams since quitting smoking, they are very trippy.

It’s a Sunday, we have to take some laundry back to the BAndB and then get a spot of lunch and then go on our excursion. It’s a cloudy day but no rain, thankfully. When we did our archaeological tour of the Orkneys it was spitting misty rain off and on, our tour guide was amazing though and had an obvious love of the land.

So far I’ve tried Scottish crab, Scottish Lamb, and Scottish Steak! Yummers!

i’M SUCH A HOMEBODY AT HEART THOUGH! I love Saskatoon and am happy to have made my home there, after such a long time in Vancouver. I appreciate it more now.

It’s been an incredible journey and I’m so happy to have come here. It will be interesting to see how my video turns out.

It’s now well into our holiday/shoot and I’ve got some great footage. We saw some puffins in Wick and I got two of them on tape but they are very small. We came into Kirkwall today to do a spot of shopping and I have to say, I’m glad we picked Stromness to stay in because it is far prettier.

The food is good from time to time, I still haven’t tried haggis because it sounds offal. Ha ha! But we did get some Scots bannock here, we haven’t tried it yet but we will!

Scotland is an interesting place to visit, everywhere seems so rich with history. Being in the Orkneys is interesting because they still have very strong ties with Norway and with their viking heritage. I found some wicked presents for people, or one person anyway, and oddly enough we found a Lonely Planet guide for the Trans Siberian Railway. Our next trip, hopefully!

Travelling with Mum is excellent except that she often has to find a bathroom. Poor lady. We haven#t seen any seals, but I am hoping we might see Dolphins at Inverness. We’re also going on a boat tour of Loch Ness soon. Maybe we’ll see some humps! My humps . . .

The weather was miserable in edinburgh, but it has vastly improved for the rest of our trip. Mum wasn’t impressed with Edinburgh castle. The really interesting part of our trip was Wick when we wandered about discovering things about our relative who lived there.

Anyway, back to Facebook I guess! I’m glad we’ve had internet access every so often because I had to attend to a couple business emails. I’m going to be in a show at the National Gallery in October, and in late September I’m going to the Lower Mainland for a few days to be part of a shoot.

Here in Scotland the sun has finally decided to peek through the clouds. I don’t have much time to write here, suffice it to say that I am doing well with my mum here and we’ve learned some interesting things about our past. We’re in Wick right now staying just around the corner from my great grandma’s house. We found the butcher shop where my great grandad used to work too. It is no longer a butcher shop. Now it’s the Volunteer centre.

Well, that’s about all the stuff I can write in my allotted time! Curse the slow library computer! I am coming out to the Lower Mainland in September, so I’m excited to see my friends. I’ve quit smoking for about 16 days now. And it’s going good! I’m repulsed by noncanadian cigs at the best of times, so this is a good experience. Til later!

It’s only a couple days until I head off to Scotland, and I’m excited as all hell. The days are going to be busy! Oh man, and I had a weird night last night. Some thuggy dude called my friend a faggot, and then another guy yelled at us and chased us. We were smoking up the last time, so our only option was to run like the wind! LOL.

I’m so having trouble with my sleeping, I keep sleeping in. I know I won’t on vacation, but still it’s a concern, especially with work coming up soon. I need to be able to get up on time.

I’m sleeping through a buzzing alarm too, it’s not pleasant but somehow I can do it. Ugh!

I have to do something about this.

I used to wish I was called a sexpert. I used to want to be a sexpert. I think I still do, which is kind of funny. I thought I would have grown out of those day dreams.

Anyway, SCOTLAND!

Well, it’s day 3 of being on the patch and still I have only smoked once. My shirt actually smells not bad and I’m coughing a bit to get the plegm out. Ew. The patches are really helping, I only think about cigarettes now when I’m first in a situation where I would have smoked. I’m not partying any time soon, so there won’t be that situation to think about smoking. And then I will be in Scotland, and I won’t think about smoking anyway. Still, I am getting enough patches to get me through Scotland.

I’m pretty psyched about going. It’s my first BIG trip in a long time. I hope we can afford it, it seems insanely expensive. As insane as a psychosis though? Hmm, not quite.

Since I have nothing else to talk about, I will now list what I am taking with me on the plane:

The New Bottoming Book by Dossie Easton and Janet W. Hardy
A sort of primer for BDSM bottoms in the ins and outs and dos and don’ts. Pretty useful.

Diva, the Special Gender Issue August 2008
I haven’t read any of it yet, it’s a UK dyke mag. Danielle Sea was on the cover.

Filmmaker The Magazine of Independent Film Summer 2008
25 new faces of Independent Film!

Film Comment July August 2008
Wall-e!

NAVIGATING THE space Between Brilliance and Madness
A Reader and Roadmap of Bipolar Worlds
Assembled by the Icarus Project
It’s a sweet zine like collection of writings by other folks with bipolar and related disorders. It gave me a warm feeling when I picked it up in the store. Plus it’s realistic about meds, which was nice.

Best Lesbian Erotica 08 edited by Tristan Taormino
I think the last time I bought lesbian erotica was in the late nineties. It’s good to update my bookshelf.

Tomorrow I am interviewing my Grandparents. It should be interesting fer sure. I got my hair cut and I feel (and probably look) tons better. I was getting shaggy. Pretty soon we’re off on an adventure. I’m going to have to do some things before we go though. Like interviewing tomorrow. And CLEANING!!

I have lots to do to clean my place, well, not TONS, I could probably do the whole place in an hour and a half. Or less.

I’m so tired!!! I should go to bed!